Clean Out Your Refrigerator Day/America Recycles Day/Pikes Peak Day/Nativity Fast/Shichi-Go-San (Japan)
2006-11-15 @ 10:29 p.m.

Listening to Return To Innocence (Long & Alive Version) right now, and I like it better than the original. Was at a cremation this morning at Mandai Crematorium. I think I don't deal very well with grief. Not in the sense that I can't handle it, but in the sense that I can't handle other people expressing it. I'm very detached. There's a terribly clinical fascination in watching the paroxysms of grief that overtake the bereaved. It's not a bit morbid, I admit as much. I don't know if I'd cry at the funeral of any of my friends or family members. I know I wouldn't want people to cry at mine. In fact, I'd want them to be happy. Happy that I'm somewhere better. Happy that they're still alive to enjoy what the world has to offer. Whatever happens, life must go on, until the end of days.