Whale Day/Mother's Day Sweden/Auto Race (Indiana)
2006-05-28 @ 11:10 p.m.

Was listening to Delerium's Poem while walking around Ikea after dinner, and I really like that album. It's appalling, the amount of music I have that I don't actively listen to. Can you believe that I've never heard a third of the songs that are on my Zen Touch? I just have them there to complete an artist's discography. Not a very healthy sign! Anyway, I'm booking in again tomorrow morning, which is kind of crappy because I was just getting used to life outside again. I really hope I can get that scholarship, as well as disruption. It's like I've pinned all my hopes on this one upcoming interview, and I don't care anymore if this is what I should be doing with my life because all I want is to get away from the military life. Call it escapism, but I've never believed in NS. I don't think it changes you for the better. Come on, it's not like you get the best role models in here, so let's stop kidding ourselves. The institution might have been relevant a generation or two ago, and it may well have had a positive impact then, all that boys to men crap. I'm just finding it hard to swallow now. Can you believe they wouldn't allow that kid to defer so he could enrol in a freaking prestigious music institution in the USA? Why must people insist so stubbornly that there is only one way to serve your country? From an economics perspective, it's not about equality; it's about equity. Some of us weren't meant to be soldiers, and Singapore's paying the price for compelling every guy to become one.