True Love Forever Day/Joke Day/Roller Coaster Day
2005-08-16 @ 9:37 p.m.

I should have skipped Civics, which was a freaking waste of my time. No disrespect intended toward Mr Hodge, but I have very little patience for the sort of fatherly advice he dispenses. Mr Kwok's test wasn't so bad. Studied enough to write for 45 minutes exactly, so I'm pretty satisfied. Not too keen on sitting for Mr Rollason's test tomorrow though. Have been reading my elegant copy of Larkin's Collected Poems, and chanced across these few lines from Born Yesterday when I riding the train home: "In fact, may you be dull -/If that is what a skilled,/Vigilant, flexible,/Unemphasised, enthralled/Catching of happiness is called." To quote faux-punk princess Avril Lavigne, "I'd rather be anything buy ordinary," but at the same thing, I desperately want to recapture the sort of contentment and peace with myself that I had just a year ago. I still find it sometimes, but only in church or when I'm outside. Definitely never in school, which is then related to what I shared with Huimin and Yan Leen a few weeks ago. Not that there aren't fun people to be around in school, but it's just that there are too many egos to tread lightly on, too many topics that are off-limits, too many appearances to keep up. Studying with Vaish in the library was nice though. No pressure to say the right things to keep on people's good sides, and everyone can just go delightfully and completely batty. Some people are more forgiving than others, for which I am immensely grateful. Anyway, I hope our OG does have a reunion the week after all our papers are over. That'd be nice, seeing the first people I met at RJC all over again, two years older, and hopefully, wiser.