Pretzel Day/Bird Day
2004-04-26 @ 10:19 p.m.

Argh! The lights in my room aren't working, and I mean all but one. It's the one I brought back from Thailand in 2001. It looks nicer when it's off actually. The illumination it gives is quite pathetic anyway. Oh, just realised that "illumination" is quite a nice word. Add that to the derivatives of "obfuscate", "ossify" and "obsolescence". That didn't make much sense, right? Never mind that. Anyway, it turns out I'm not going for the exchange programme. Our teacher got the namelist mixed up. Oddly though (and I know it sounds flippant), I'm not really upset. To be honest, there wasn't an emotional earthquake. I was quite prepared to be not selected, and the whole thing would have been rather stressful for my mum anyway. This all boils down to the fact that I can slack around more now. Perhaps I'm too clever at compartmentalising my feelings? Like how I can enjoy staring blankly into space (only in your general direction of course), butt I don't want to think about the reason why because it makes me sad, so sad...