I Want You To Be Happy Day/National Anthem Day/Hina Matsuri (Japan)
2004-03-03 @ 8:38 p.m.

I want us to be happy. I want us to stay together. Mr Purvis says the powers that be have declared that holders of L1R5s above 7 cannot be guaranteed a place in RJC, even within the Arts stream. That's really scary, but I'd like to believe him when he says that our class will split "over [his] dead body". He'll fight to keep us together, because he sees something in 1A01A worth keeping. I want to believe him since he has seen many batches of students in the course of his teaching career, yet I can't help but worry for those now in a more precarious position than previously assumed. Why should a few lines on a piece of paper dictate two years of our lives? There is something rotten with the system, but there isn't a damned thing that we can do about it in our position. The saddest thing is, it's not like we hate each other or anything. We're actually beginning to genuinely like each other, casual bantering aside. Just two more weeks, and then we'll know...

Enough depressing news! Today was actually, to quote Chernise, "a really good day" for me. It was my essay that Mr Purvis was referring to after all, because he read it out during English today. It was absolutely mortifying! Not that it was bad, I'm not bragging but I thought it sounded nice, considering the time I took to write it. I still disagree about my having talent though, despite him picking out some phrases that suggest some ability with the language. I prefer to think it was just a happy coincidence, makes me feel less pressured that way. I wasn't the only good one, he singled out Chernise, Daniel and Yi-Xun too, I think. You won't believe the ribbing I got from the class for the second half of the day. It didn't help that Mr Sowden gave back our Economics essay too, for which I got 20/25. I hope I don't screw up my History essays too badly now, though everyone would probably just think it was bad luck. Feeling irrationally annoyed with myself...